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Autumn morning,

Standing wide dam, looked up to heaven.

Lofty open sky, little clouds of several flower, looks very clear, over the past few vague and ambiguous.

Golden sun, shining on the slopes north of the Yangtze River.

The sun low mountain ranges, has been extended along the river, we can not extend to the witness.

On the hillside north of the Yangtze River, all of everything, in the sun shine in, everything has become the world's gold embellishment.

Upstream to the not far looked a White Tower stands in the river not far from the north shore of the highest hills, stand alone under the sun, shining not tell the subtle brilliance.

Baita is not far away from the river, there are many houses in the vague green trees, it is the market town of Lotus Corporation - Cixi, that local politics of economic and commercial center.

Upstream in Cixi, Baita mountain which was a stream cut off, that a river called Cixi, Cixi name of the resulting space.

Stream side of a high hill, the locals call it "slip Shapo."

Local legend: "After death, the evil in the world who are sentenced to do hard labor Yanwang Ye, iron sling slip Shapo back in the sand, the sand from the stream back to the slip Shapo, and from slide to Shapo next fall, they come back, so to punish these evil person. "

In support of the above statement, but also specifically stressed: "That's why people see the Dan Guzi Shapo has been sliding down slide, but the stream did not fill."

At this point the south dam, there is no exposure to the sun, cool in a shadow being.

Yangtze River's north and south sides, with the two different views, just like two worlds.

Several small girl, barefoot, playing on the grass in the dam.

Sub-chains on the grass covered with grass, the grass under the sand, soft grass easily.

Occasionally, some several flower flowers, make kids happy exception, eager to pick.

These little girls, age not more than six years old, they are rain incense, Xiuyu and Little Green.

They are born in the river, long the waterfront.

Behind them the town is their home.

Surrounded the town around, there are many common species that area - Ma Willow. There are several strains of other trees, such as that yellow corner tree, banana trees and other small species.

From a distance, in a small town surrounded by trees, the trees can only vaguely see the shadow of the house, under the gray tile roof with some brown.

"Look, the sun starts to shine in a dam across the river!" I shouted to them.

They then looked to the other side, for a moment.

Then do we just keep playing on the grass up, story-telling. Blind fishing in troubled waters, learning acrobats bending shuttle "one".

The sun starts to shine across the river in, little by little, move to the River Center, the river formed the Si Sibo light, shining in the river beating.

River boats appear from time to time ......Leave, she hold me, his face is tears, very beautiful, really. Even with such a cry as she is still beautiful, the audience's soul. She hugged me and kept talking, "a small place, I'm sorry, I'm sorry." I tremble in her shoulders a harsh bite, until the smell of blood filled my Chunchi Jian, I could not help but want to vomit . She Menheng was, like most of the small building in that dark, under a man's body, put out of the moaning. Really hate! So, I loose mouth, I told her: "Mother." This is the last time I told you, I do not expect you soft-hearted, we farewell Well, from a stranger. She seemed to sense my despair, she let go, got up, I handed over to the orphanage will be the president, dean crouch down hold me, that Biao, so the child will leave with his head did not back off.

I stayed in the orphanage a year-old that year, I struggled to live, but fortunately there is a glowing, otherwise I can not imagine I will not get depression. Glowing one year younger than me, but she has lived in the orphanage for nearly five years, and her bleak me feel not too bad. Only a few months when she was thrown in front of the orphanage, the President left her, her own parents are not the slightest impression, do not know his birthday, is there any relatives? Her name? She did not. I stood up to her, she told me. "Small place brother." I looked dirty, she does not say anything. I thought: I better than her.

Who is such an animal, in the face of good things, jealous, envious, and even low self-esteem. But in the face of things bear more than their own, you can find Jisi comfort, when I see even more bleak than bright when I, is such a feeling. Even the birth of a sense of pity, is not that ridiculous, what qualifications I have compassion people? A Biao, the child born of wild species!

Seven, Yu Cheng couple will I take back to their home, that is, I was home. Cheng Yu changed his name to me, "Yu white." Actually, I hate his goodness, why I also keep the woman's name? I do not want to call Yu white, I want to erase everything on the woman thing. However, I can not.

I lived a life enough to live comfortably, Yu Cheng family was excellent, they couple unable to have children with my son as pro-general. I listed the best in primary school and has a new mother pick. I learned the piano, painting. And all the boys, like reading, playing basketball. I am very well, all thanks to the gift of my real mother, I really should thank her, really.

Junior high school, I once again met the glowing, glowing she was called, but she named, she called Guotong Tong. I left the orphanage in the second year, was a bright, single man surnamed Guo picked up, the child had had a normal life. This fate is not considerate of two-hand ah, once again this little girl on my side. The tragic world of my childhood a little spectators, she witnessed the most unfortunate of the year I saw her my heart will trigger the deepest shadow. I like to be the same as she opened a scar, no place to escape.

Many times I have wondered if the glowing does not exist from the beginning like this person, so I would not be so obvious tragic, I and A the end of burning love can come later. I look at how shameless, even hope that the fate of the troubled girl has never been original, keep my blood and bones of the woman was actually the same as degrading.

I was 15 years old met A burning, that is the summer of 2002, the opening ceremony. I am late, are not find the location of the class. She asked me: "a few classes?"

"Seven to." I did not notice the girl opening the way to help me.

"We have a class." She said.

"Thank you." Pile of my boys went to the station.

One afternoon after school, English classes, I received a note she passed over. And stayed in accordance with the above requirements.

I looked at her, God knows my heart is in the churn, I think I should have something soon swallowed up. Her long hair tied in the back, smooth forehead, thin eyebrows, Feelings of eyes, high nose, small mouth, teeth very white very neat. Biao and memory that actually, surprisingly like the child's face, she stood in front of my desk. Bright smile, "how you like when my boyfriend?"

I heard the cries of the blood before falling apart, it is clamoring to me near the girl. Know what I thought was what is it? I thought she was that Biao, son and businessman's daughter, because, then, like, even, more beautiful than that **.

I finally wake up, I said: "When my girlfriend how you like?"

She then nodded, "Good!"

What is holding me what kind of mentality close to her? I asked myself countless times. The only reason she looks like a woman that abandoned me. Therefore, A burning, we are wrong from the outset, I tell you the feelings of hatred from the beginning of the woman, and I love you, I hate starting at the psychology. When I began to realize this, I made a break, maybe I intend to start that way, I do not know, I know, I have a little far away from you. Otherwise I will think of themselves the way to hurt you, destroy you, I was so dark psychological time, you believe it?

Lee forgot once warned me, "Yu white, summer burning plant in your hands sooner or later thing, stopping me, but I have to abandon her, you remember that kid, I would look at you." That When I made a dismissive way, "You look at me is useless, you do not know? she planted in my hands, stopping you, is why you do it?" but my mind was also dark scolded himself, Biao, the child born of wild species, flowing, and Biao, the blood of the child, as pariahs. I am good enough for you, A burning, do not stand beside me.

I always think of these years, Lee forgotten how to anticipate the outcome of I and A burning? I admit, when I A burning feeling is not deep, but definitely not laughing matter. I like her, she hold me from that time onwards, the feelings they sprouted, and then jump up and crazy. From the foot around to my neck, grabbed my doom, let me breathe. I was wrong, I said, I was wrong, I should not mess with her.

Spring of 2003, SARS struck. This cozy and comfortable Chengdu cities into a panic. With the city and I panic, it's from the SARS panic, I panic from the burning summer, or that Lee forgot.

I never knew, I was so Fanjian who does not dare to, do not want people to be. Lee forgot that someone else is, I admit, I am flustered, and chaotic. I really think that if I do not do something, forget the summer of the burning is Lee.

And fuel together before the summer, I was monotonous. I eat, sleep school, playing basketball, doing most of the boys are doing things like (Dad) and (mother) had hoped. The emergence of summer burning everything upset my life become a little less stiff. However, I will again and again before the emergence of a voluptuous woman's face, made me crazy. I know, I would like to continue, summer burning on the ruined, even if I do not like her. It will break up in the final analysis, then, or I do not like her, or that I had not realized that hidden in the heart of love for her.